can i have some privacy?
Posted on: Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Posted at: 5:04 AM
I`m feeling so sad & angry right now... I just want to go back, can`t you understand!!!
I hate this feeling! Always haunting me wherever i go... everytime when i want to go back to my hometown, surely there is something going on which prevents me from going back.
Before i could go back, i have to do so many things, tell them what are my reasons of going back and need to say a lot of things to make them to be able to let me go back. Can I have some privacy? WHy should I tell them everything about my life? Am I that type of person who is so unreasonable? I know that "event" is a very important event but if I promise that i will learn those things as fast as I can after my return, will they willing to let me go? Why can`t they understand my feelings?
The feelings whereby you miss all your family members but, you still need to wait for the holiday to come before I could see them. I keep telling myself "be patient, be patient!!"
After the exams, I can plan everything that I wish to do when I`m going back.
But, after I have all those beautiful images in my mind, suddenly i realised that I could not go back. Well, perhaps you don`t understand how I feel because you have never experience this before. I wish that someday you will be able to feel this feelings, so that you could understand how I feel.
Well, now everything that I can do is just to keep praying to GOD, wishing that hopefully they can understand how I feel and will let me go.
Amen!!
phew!!
Labels: hope this is the last time
